A Knitting Affair

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Tomorrow at the office they are going to be cutting through the brick wall and inserting a window. It might be done tomorrow, it might not be done until Thursday.

Its snowing right now.

High of -12 tomorrow (or something like that)

ACK!

ps … Happy 100th blog post Karen!

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He was obviously very tired. Its 6:30pm and he’s been asleep of 20 minutes already. He even fell asleep watching one of his favorite shows. So I know he was really tired. So cute.It’s interesting, being a mom. My love for my little “dude” brings tears to my eyes and a smile to my lips. I can’t imagine ever loving anyone more than I love him.

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Yes, I have been knitting on the Rowan Project sweater too. It hasn’t been just socks. I had knit up a ball of wool cotton and had a brainfart. Why am I knitting it back and forth? Why am I making it in pieces? Am I that much of a goof?? Well of course I am not going to admit to any of it so we will just say that I did a big gauge swatch (and didn’t even measure the swatch).

As you can see in the picture, the knitting and the old knitting. I decided to not even skein up the old knitting, rather, just knit from it into the new, in the round, Rowan sweater. Another change that I made to the pattern (which will be one of many, this is after all taking an old pattern and making it more modern) is to not do the ribbing. Instead, I went right into the cable.

As you can see from the picture that it actually gives a nice little pointy edge. Almost like a picot edge but not. I am on ball number two and have many more to go. The sweater is going along well when I do work on it. I am enjoying the knitting and cabling without a cable needle. Time wise, I am knitting on it one or two days out of the week. Not that much, I am hoping to knit on it a bit more. Now that things are settling down for me a bit more.

Spinning: I want the new Ladybug Wheel. I plan on getting it. However, I am actually having some restraint when it comes to buying it. Shuttleworks is getting an order of them in on the 21st. BUT I am really working on making myself healthy – physically, emotionally, spiritually. I am working on myself. I have not been dealing with the death of my dad. I have been projecting that emotion towards some important people in my life. I have been pushing them away rather than dealing. I have some others who have been super supportive and have let me know that they won’t stand for it and will be here for me. Knowing that if I break down and wig out they will not walk away from me, rather they will accept me, hug me, let me talk and help me move on. I am very thankful for them. So, once a few of my goals for myself are met, I will be getting myself the wheel.

Out of the mouths of babes: Cameron and I were listening to the Charlie Brown Christmas CD today (yeah yeah I know, but he likes it) and Hark the Harold Angels sing was on. I try to keep my emotions away from him. The sad one’s. But, he always seems to know and when I feel that I don’t know if I can cope with my sadness he turns to me and says (like he did today) … Poppa is an Angel now. He is in Heaven looking after us. Angels are good. God made Angels to keep us safe…

Yes I cried. As he stated it so innocently while in his car seat. It is a moment like this where I know my dad is still with me. That he is with me and Cameron. That he is watching over us. That he loves me and always has. My spirituality (as I believe it to be) gets restored and fills me up. Giving me the strength to face my sadness and maybe even smile.

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. I am knitting them out of Socks that Rock, Kryptonite. I have made a small change to the pattern, garter heels and toes. I am starting the leg pattern. Hopefully I will get them done this week. One can have dreams right?
*Can you identify which skein this is from my top photo? See, I really am knitting with my stash*

**After posting about anxiety ect, I am now getting spammed. Go figure**

***I am really enjoying have an obligation free weekend. I have no plans and am going to keep it that way. Hoping to watch a few movies. I cleaned part of my house too. Love that. ***

****Damn Karen for making me post on the bottom like this with footnotes. Its all her fault****

*****Dana, Congrats.*****

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errr …. am knitting socks, sitting here, watching a movie and turning the heel … and I start to panic about the fact that I am using up the yarn. That it won’t be in my stash anymore. And thinking about the new socks that I am planning on knittng. How I am not planning on purchasing yarn anytime soon … and started to freak because my stash will be dwindling (*gasp*)

Considering the size of my stash, this is pretty silly

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… or … be like me … and take good drugs!

((yes this is me doing my daily NaBloPoMo post!)

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